I am a woman who was robbed and raped in my own home two years ago while my young son slept next to me. I do believe I suffer from some rape related PTSD but not how people expect! instead of becoming timid and shying away from sexual contact have become he exact opposite....become very promiscuous to the point that my health and safety area repeatedly at risk, even knowing it will eventually catch up with me I can't stop! I have sex with men and women, my boss at work, random strangers, multiple partners in one day, and almost nobody has any idea. I like that I am able to enjoy myself freely with no attachment, I've gone through pain to become this strong so I wanna enjoy it, but when I have found someone who I actually care about I'm never able to commit and attach myself no matter how much I want to! This has ruined my chances of ever having a normal relationship again. My sons dad died this year and it makes me sD that he will probably never have a step dad or siblings like he wants because I'm too damaged to ever give that to him! : /
